Friday, February 2, 2007

sometimes its never da same...

sometimes things happen to u... n they change ur life foreva.. ur way thinkin.. ur perspective.. everythin.. n YOu know u will never be da same again...
for me... even a song does it.. anyway.. i witnessed quite a few life changin ordeals today... for starters .... as i borded da bus in da mornin.. yup..the infamous dtc to vasant kunj...it was a fine mornin...da kinda day where u feel dat everythings gonna be happy types... k so i slept in da bus....and landed up i dono wher... buh dats not wat im gonna write abt
today wen i was as usual listenin to my ipod..wid my currentfav playin again n again..[kiss me by avril lavigne for dose who'd like to know] i noticed somethin diff... i suddenly had dis feelin of ethereal bein.. as if i was up in da air..n flyin.. beneath a clear bloo sky against a green green grass i mean...it ws a hot sunny delhi afternoon.. n if someone is feelin as if they're on top of the alps...n its cool n breezy.. something's got to be wrong..
i got down frm da bus...n dis lil lady...came n asked me for money..a beggar girl ... i...gave her all my food..(!!!) wich i had to have for da rst f da day.. weird huh..
n den suddenly ...i started missin everythin n everone dat ever happened to me i missed school i missed mom i missed my 2 cranky sisters i mised ppl who betrayed me.... i missed ppl who stood up for me... everythin.. n i felt light as if a huge burden was lifted frm my shoulders... n all along..i was listenin to dis song..its kinda insignificant buh still i'd lik to mention....
... i know im da sort of person who thinks too much so maybe dis was jus a result of an overdose..
but i jus felt lik tellin everyone WHOSE EVER MEANT ANYTHIN TO ME...
i love u ppl n i miss u n i think i always wil even if uve hurt me even if ive hurt u i think I am neva gonna be able to hate again!!
i consider hatin a good thing it works for me... it helps me get over stuff get over ppl its a tonic i don think i can ever hate again
i felt like im cyclin.. i love cylcin.. freely... wid my face against da air feelin da cool breeze against my skin.. beneath the milky twilight out on the moonlit floor, silver moon sparkling beside the green green grass.... it'll never be da same again...
PS aqseer..i now understand ... i love green too! :)