About a Girl 1

Heyyo earthlings,
No I didnt just read hitchhikers, i'm using the word earthings for all of you becz I belong to a different planet nowadays. Planet anxiety. ah well. Lets not get into that, this blogpost is not about me, its about one of my bestest friends, Sodhi.
Sodhi is sodhi. you really cant define her actually , especially not now when I 'm pretty mind fucked with all the college stuff happening.
Actually I went through this poem written my by miss aqseer sodhi today morning and I fell in love with her all over again.
Wanted all you guys to read it too.
This is going to be a reminder post for me, I gotta write a full fledged thing on her, I just HAVE to.

I know she doesnt read all this so its kinder comforting in some weird sorta manner. I guess when I really love someone , I really DONT want them to know.
yea, I dont.
Anyway, read on :

COLORS
BLUE from fighting with herself-
She crashes into cabinets
And kicks cupboards with her shins

GREEN with envy as the boy she loves
Gazes adoringly (is the adoration for real?) at her best friend
She cuts and slashes
At her fragile, tortured skin

RED the drops of blood glisten
And a smile creeps across her face
As she lets herself well up
And tears-

Liquid SILVER they shine on her cheek
Before running into her

BLACK midnight hair
That falls to her waist
Before she rises in fury
To grab those SIVER scissors
And chop it all off

Her head falls back
And she bays like a hound

GRAY
SHe looks like a convict
No pain is good enough to relieve her's

Frantically she rummages in her neat room
Finds the sweater her grandmum made-
[The grandmum that died
Left her alone]
BLUE and PINK- The sweater she pulls over her head

YELLOW
The sun rising in the sky
As she clambers up the wall

WHITE
The feeling of calm that pervades her being
As she finds that the beauty of the
Crisp winter morning relieves her
More than the cursed fucking blade
Ever fucking did

She reads and and hums to herself
She clambers back down
To find her dog dead
And it starts all over again

This picture is US. Sodhi is the tree , I'm the bike. This is "our" best pic together. If you think we're a lil pscyhed in the head , then I wont blame you. And ofcourse, the exquisite photography is by our very own Nia.
Dont try to understand it, just absorb the awesomeness and love behind it.


So long.

More than a wait

So i've totally lost it, WHEN WILL APRIL 1 ARRIVE FOR CHRISSAKE!!!
everyones makin it thru michigan ann arbor and UIUC. Its just not fair, i should've applied to these two!
gee, where am i going with this?? :P
Its just pre-april 1-madness... i believe.
I don't even say my decisions are gonna come, i use the word "acceptances"!
anyway, as u can guage i'm in no position to write blog posts...so here's this picture for you guys.


Take care amigos.
Ciao.

What I'm really thinking

Anyone who knows me even remotely would know what 'The wonder years ' means to me.
Its like my food. I cant live without it and as they say, you don't know what you have until you lose it, it couldnt have occured to me more clearly.
At the risk of sounding extremely melodramatic, I'd like to let you know that the past week has been sheer torture for me. Zee cafe folks have stopped airing my most favorite of all tv shows and its like slow posion for me. Okay they do air it in the morning sometime, but i'm not a morning person , unfortunately.

Not being able to watch wonder years for like 7 days made me realise how much i was into it. And seriously, I've learned hell lot from that show. Its like been an ongoing life lesson for me. I know it's so kiddo -like to let tv shows become a major chunk of your life, but for some inexplicable reason, I've become attached to wonder years and I dont seem to let go.Its more like epiphanic for me.

I guess I always identify with Kevin, how he responds to situations is so much like I do. The whole pleasant torture from an overbearing elder sibling, the high school heartaches, the mom relationship, the best friend living next door thing, its just all so strikingly similar.

This just reminds me of the fact that how weirdly aloof my life is, before this it never occured to me that my existence is very narrow. Being away from family for a long time has taught me a lot of things unknowingly , the most major one being living my own life alone without being involved. I have realised that slowly and gradually , I have made possible that all things that i depend on are non living. I do not want humans to matter to me so much, its this innate sense of vulnerability that i have. I like 'staying away'.
Anyway, without getting into un-pleasant details, I'd just mention, that stuff's been working for me all right and I love being the person i am. i guess some of us just live through life depending on stuff like ..umm..tv shows?

This is my most adored picture of Kev-Win and ofcourse, I always feel all "awwy" whenever i look at it. :P
I stil cant get over the fact though, that kevin and winnie didn't end up together. I guess you really never know what happens with relationships. They're so random and fragile. One blow can kill anything, they gotta be handled with super care ,but , as everything else in life, this too, we learn after all the damage is done.



There is this quote from the show which is narrated while the junior high school prom is going on with " unchained melody" playing in the background, its become one of my favorites,here you go, read it :
"All of our young lives we search for someone to love. Someone that makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance to a song of heartbreak and hope. All the while wondering if somewhere, somehow, there's someone perfect who might be searching for us."

PS .I know.
My sis says "Get a life" too . :P

PPS. For all you fellow star wars buffs, theres this uber cool online journal I found which is pretty awesome. A good read. Try it out.

My last 'high'

I went over to aqseer's place and for some reason, we decided to ride a bike , as in a bicycle.Yes, a bicycle.
I had not ridden a bike since 8th grade and it seems, i had forgotten how wondrous and liberating it is for me, It was like so un explainably beautiful.

I rode and rode and rode. And i have pictures to prove it. Thanks to nia, who is gonna end up being this big shot photographer by the way and i'm gonna be her muse.

for now, you guys just see the pics and read into them.





The last pic is nia me and aqseer. Could i love my girls any more? :)

"This part of my life, this part right here, it's called Being Happy."

Take care everyone,
Stay
HAPPY

PS. I have also realised that "angel" by Aerosmith is one of the most beautiful songs ever. :P