Thursday, July 19, 2007

Contentment Seeketh

"...My salad days, When I was green in judgment, cold in blood..." - William Shakespeare, Antony and Cleopatra

hmmm...as i see it...im sittin here..entirely and totally displeased.
umm..no please dont get any ideas why..i don like it when people assume what i'm gonna say..cz its so hopelessly wrong the whole time....
i have discovered that life is the most impossible thing to handle. and contentment the hardest to sought.
right. one moment something happens to u ...and then u swear to god u will not let it happen again..and then u tell yourself that it wont happen if u don't let it happen...and then eventually it does happen and the whole point is lost.
what I'm talking might sound so excessively pointless ...since i cannot explicitly talk abt it..but the crux of the matter is :its a tough thing just to remain happy!

i wonder with all the wondering cells in my being as to why the basic requisite of our existence and the most elementary need of mankind ,"happiness" is so hard to seek?
when we take upon paths of revenge or similar stuff...are we destroying ourselves or are we liberating ourselves??
why are the hardest battles we fight against the people we love the most...when its should be with our hard sworn enemies?
why has the world been at war since i dono how many centuries when all everyone desires is peace?? okay...this is going to the next level.
but all i have been able to figure out is that wats basic is the most strenuous to achieve!
alright this was just another lame attempt at another lame personal post tryin to get the ambiguity out of the scene but hell! i can afford to be goddamn held up cz this godforsaken is supposed to be my blog!

though i have sent a number of questions into the void right now[ if u guys know any of them..please feel free to enlighten the rest of human race] but i would hold the followin facts to be self evident ..from now on [sorry for stealin ur words mr.jefferson....]

ah...lets not make this formal..but i want everyone to know what i took 17 yrs to figure out:
1.i have discovered that the more u try to do something..the more it doesn't happen.
2.i have figured out that the best way to remain happy is to not seek happiness.
3.i have discovered that its best to be patient .patience srslee is the utmost virtuous attribute.
4.i have found out that the only way i can stay un affected is by not letting it affect me[ what...no what did i say...so u see...I've lost it already]
5.i have begun to realise that when they say "everything in life happens for a reason "...they really mean it.
6.i have discovered that Kurt Cobain was right when he said :
"I'm so happy because today I found my friends - they're in my head."
7. i have realised that life is not gonna be the same forever...
8. i have realised that what I'm realising right now will soon be forgotten by me and i will revert back to what i was up to [ thats y i blog silly]
9. but i also know that deep inside i will prevent it from happening this time.[who am i foolin?]
10. i 've realised that its always better to be cold and forgiving rather than attached and hung upon.
11. i have realised that this post is what happens to me when I'm thinking a lot.
12.i have realised that basically we should just learn one thing in life...
"to let go".
13. i have realised that when u hit some particular button accidentally the whole post vanishes... but thanks to blogger...its auto saved.[alright this din take 17 yrs!]
14.i have realised that without the swings in life..it would be sad and pointless and risk free ...but wud be like a flat road to nowhere.
15. i have realised that one small effort in the rigtht direction can make a herculean difference to all the wrong ones .


well...i think a lot and introspection can be injurious to health.
by the way...I'm the type of person who will never accept the fact that a movie/song/writer/book is good till i cannot testify for it myself...so when i saw the fast and the furious today...i told myself ...people CAN make sense sometimes.


PS notice the world of difference that one yellow happy face makes to the hundreds of blue sullen ones. see what i mean??

PPS
I'm gonna avoid using caps so often from now on..cz as it turns out...it can annoy people!
:)
take care everyone.




passing thought:
"its unbelievable how things change in a minute"
.
the doors

9 comments:

RG said...

Hmm...displeased?

It is not really tough to remain happy. I can't explain it, but it isn't.

Anonymous said...

I know I KNOW my coments seem like theyre the same always.but then if theres someone who related to what you're saying a 100% it is ONLY ME.

I agree witht he fact that when ones speaking about stuff.. people themselves start wondering where its going.. as in all your friends think they KNOW EXACTLY wherre you're getting at. And you're not even getting at that!

And all the points. I AGREE!

and even i think alot . ALOT. this is exactly how i would write if i had to write about this stuff.

and will you think im hittng on you if I tell you that im going through the SAME BILUDDY 'phase' (as they cal it) this is exactly what ive been thinking about since forever. And i thought im weird. Now i know you think it. So I tink im cool.

Very very very well expressed. See, its more important to express yourself rather than impressing someone else.

You make PERFECT sense to me.

Anonymous said...

i love it.
all points true for me.
freaky how that happens na?
letting go seriously is the BEST thing for us to do.
& adore the doors quote. :D

UDit said...

Well written i agree...and as u read thru the points how realization was beginning to dawn on u...i found that the best...
It really ain't hard to stay happy, but its best possible when u don't think too much! ;) thats my opinion!
Am pretty upbeat today!
And yes, even though at one point 'letting go' may be the toughest to do, when u do happen to do it, it is the easiest of them all...

Anonymous said...

it is tough to remain happy. its impossible sumtimes. interestingly so far, the men think its easy, and the women think its tuf. [among the ppl that commented]
except for the first para i really really like it.
and i like the little things u adorn ure posts with :) they really add to em
oh and, we need a few hundred ppl to think for the rest thou knowest..
ps- u fight with the ones u love the most because u expect a lot from them. they dont live up to xpectations, u freak.
and u feel like u can be ureselves with them, even the ugly parts

Radhika said...

yes you do think too much!! not good for health!
I think happiness really comes from knowing that your efforts are yielding results n if that doesnt happen then you usually cant be happy!
And yes you need to njoi what ure doin!!
rest it depends on th individual..

Unknown said...

i dont think we're supposed to hope for happiness- i think we're supposed to hope for joy. i dont really know if i believe in happiness- coz thts supposed to be like this state of existence- but even zen masters arent ashamed to cry...

Unknown said...

ps. i loved the cobain quote- i rilly like tht one as well! and yes i love the stuff u put on ure blog as well

Anonymous said...

@rg:
umm..its not tough when u just don care...
y'know murphy's law...when u want somethin to happen..it doesnt happen.

@keerti:
i completely agree hands down..its better to be what u are and feel what u feel than care abt teh rst of the world which anyway doesnt matter a grain..

@nitya:
i know its freaky..but we're soul sistahs rber?

@udit:
" when u do happen to do it, it is the easiest of them all..."
i cudnt have agreed more

@aqseer
man! u just pointed out what i was feelin inside...this just explains that guys are wrecks and they make girls' life tuff while they are in their own blissful world ...hehe
boys sucketh! ;)

@radhika:
yup! thats da bst kind of hapiness...when u get somethin for the effort u put in...

@shirin:
even im a zen master...
yea!
well..iguess this is what u mean:

u can cry..aint no shame in it!
will smith